So much more than my dog…

getfileattachment-10When Davidson was given to me, only 5 weeks old, I could never have imagined how big part of my life he would be. For the past 12 years he has been my one firm point in life. People have come and gone, given me promises and expectations, disappointed me, hurt me and continue their lives but he has always been there. My little shadow. Wherever we are, even home, he still want to be able to see me and all is fine. He will limp after me to the bath room and sit on the bathroom carpet and wait for me. He comes along to the gym, and lies on his blanket, watching over me. If I disappear behind a pillar and he loses sight of me, the crying starts. My every day starts with his morning walk and ends with his night walk.

He has had quite a few health issues over the years but we have pulled through them all. He is so strong. He never complains. He is so kind. Everybody loves him. He has this charisma that I never saw in a dog before. People come up to us everywhere and just want to know him. The kids call him Scooby Doo 🙂

Now that he is weak and old, he still only cares about me. He tries his very best to keep me happy and his heart is still so strong. I look at him and his tail is wagging. It is painful.  Who am I to decide between life and death. How will I be able to know what to do and when. Two more vet visits today, and what will be the outcome. I can see he trusts whatever decision I make. He is entirely in my hands. I want what is best for him.  This is a shit position to be in but I must be strong, for Davidson, my best friend and the closest I have to a child. I owe him that. I just wonder, how do you prepare yourself. How will anything be normal again.

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3 thoughts on “So much more than my dog…

  1. You can never be prepared. From the moment we have a pup we know that, all being equal, we will outlive our pet. You will know when the time comes. This boy will look at you with pleading in his eyes. You love him immeasureably and so you will let him go, kindly and gently. It will be your last loving deed for him and you will know you’ve done the decent thing. He will always be with you. He is irreplaceable. He will leave a huge gap in your life that one day, if you’re brave, you will fill with another equally loving guardian who will love and protect you completely but in a different way. His legacy. I leave you with warmest love and all strength. Jacqui

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